| When i was eight i was really depressed writting poetry at that age. I have lived in depression since then. as some can see by my writting. Now im not sucicidal but i cant say i never was. I lost some friends becuase i was psycotic yea i really don't blame them. I didnt like me at the time and i'm sure no one else did. About three months ago i smiled of pure joy. it scared me but i loved it. i kept on smiling though things around me were happening and really they werent anything to smile about. but i dont know what happened i kept smileing and being happy. i still have been writtin sad poetry but not as much. i mena i only write when depressed because when your happy its easy to say what you feel when your sad its much harder and easier to write. im done with depression i like who i am most the time. and to the friend i lost i want to say im sorry. i know you re on this site and if you read this im sorry. now im getting alot of people who are like who i was and now i see how hard it was to deal with me. i mean i never believed i was special worth living how am i to say the same to someone. all i can say is that i love them and i would miss them. and maybe they will be smarter than i was. for the people that cant handle it anymore stick with it i had to wait 6 years but i waited and it came. write poetry be happy and know someone is there that is like you dealing with hard problems and maybe just maybe you can write an artical saying you got over depression too. |
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