Why can't you just look in my eyes and see how much I need you to care about me? How much I want you to cry over me? How many thousands of pieces my heart breaks into every time I see you?
Why don't you realize how fragile you've made me? How you made me see how much there is to me? How wonderful I am? How much I deserve?
Why don't you feel me leaning on you for support? Can't you hear me crying out for help when I am drowning in my own tears?
Why do you think you can just push me away? How long will it be before you realize I'm not some one to be pushed around? To be pushed away?
Why is it that I see my sorrow in the mirror, but you look ayt my plastic smiles every day and haven't seen through them yet? What more will it take? How many times do I have to shatter my own image? How many times do I have to pick up the pieces again?
Why won't you just sit down by me and help me fit the pieces together? How do you put together a puzzle when you can't see the final picture?
Why don't you want to be a piece in my puzzle? A character in the story of my life? A player in my game?
Why do we have to play games with each other? When will you learn you can always look me in theeyes, even when tears blur your vision and stream down your face?
Why can't you see in me the ocean of hope that swells and threatens to overflow my heart and soul whenever you are near? How much of the shore must be washed away by the ebbing tide before you learn to just trust me? Learn to swim, to just dive in? Even when the water is cold, choppy, dark, frightening?
Why don't you feel me shivering and know I am just as scared as you? Can't you see that I need you to hold me, guide me, protect me?
Why can't you just see that I love you?
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