Ok, I've never written one of these things before but I just really need to get some peoples opinions cuz this is just something I can't even go to my friends with.
There is this guy, I met him 2 years ago and I fell in love with him right away, he's the sweetest, most caring guy I've ever met, and we have become very close, we almost went out a while ago but he met someone else and they have been together now for 1 year... all this time I've loved him, though I've hidden it and even denied it to my friends because they would think I'm crazy. This girl, she's 3 years younger than him and she's a lot more immature than him, she controls him like crazy and he barely gets to see his friends anymore because she doesn't like them or she's jealous or some stupid reason that makes no sense. She reads all his emails and if she doesn't like what they say then she delates them and if he even talks to another girl that she doesn't know she gets mad. He's been through so much with her... he punched something when he got mad at her and broke his hand and needed surgery and physio, he tried to commit suicide 3 times, always worrying about her and what shes doing because her and her friends are so immature, so much stress and everything.
I have always tried to be there for him, always. I went with him to the hospital the night he broke his hand and I was there the day he came out of surgery... I went with him to all of his checkups at the hospital just so he wouldn't have to be alone and I went walking with him at 2 in the morning in the snow because he was upset and I always let him cry on my shoulder when he was upset. I guess he just forgets all this.
Now heres the complicated part. I'm kinda friends with this girl, we hang out sometimes and stuff. I decided like 6 months ago that I would make an effort with her just because she's my best friends girlfriend. But now that he's getting fed up with the way she is acting she's coming to me for advice, how can I give her advice to keep him when I'm the one who wants to be by his side? But then maybe I should give her the advice because I don't think he'll ever think of me like that, but I love him so much, I've never felt this way about anyone ever before. You'll notice a lot of my poetry posted is written about 1 person and most of it is for him.
oh i just don't know anymore! i'm so confused!! does everyone go through this or is it just me??? |
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