(I know I typed this three times, but it wa the only way to make up the 1200 words needed for submission. So read if you want and tell me what you think, and by all means write an article in response, that would be fun.)
I’m having trouble…remembering stuff. Memories. They keep fading, and then returning (never as sharp as the day they were formed, but that’s to be expected) and then fading as if they weren’t there in the first place. Bad memories always return more as feeling than as actual ‘mental-movies’ and I try to re-write them in a better light but this just screws up everything. And then there are the recurring questions…I would give away my ability to think as an individual without a second thought if it would stop these questions and let me do what needs to be done. To do my job and make money so I can buy a crummy home that does only what its supposed to and all the stuff needed to sustain my physical shell. I must be crazy, but then you have the whole ‘catch 22’ situation. Go figure. Go read the book. I don’t know. Maybe it’s the alcohol I keep drinking, or the questions posed by others getting stuck in my head like some stupid stuck record, or just the thoughts of others period. Some questions, no, all questions are pointless wastes of time. We have a system, a system so perfect in its flawed-ness that we need never think individually again, only work like a blue-assed fly to maintain. Bollocks to the planet. When it fades, so will we, and nothing will be worried about again. Few worry now, at least few of those that matter anyways, and by the time a critical mass worries then it’ll be too late and we’ll all die. We are born to die anyway, so no worries there. Uh oh, thoughts leaning towards suicidal. Better stop. Never mind. Just forget all this, re-write your memory or something. All this will fade away anyway so it really doesn’t matter. Nothing does anymore. Remember to maintain the system! Adios, peace out.
I’m having trouble…remembering stuff. Memories. They keep fading, and then returning (never as sharp as the day they were formed, but that’s to be expected) and then fading as if they weren’t there in the first place. Bad memories always return more as feeling than as actual ‘mental-movies’ and I try to re-write them in a better light but this just screws up everything. And then there are the recurring questions…I would give away my ability to think as an individual without a second thought if it would stop these questions and let me do what needs to be done. To do my job and make money so I can buy a crummy home that does only what its supposed to and all the stuff needed to sustain my physical shell. I must be crazy, but then you have the whole ‘catch 22’ situation. Go figure. Go read the book. I don’t know. Maybe it’s the alcohol I keep drinking, or the questions posed by others getting stuck in my head like some stupid stuck record, or just the thoughts of others period. Some questions, no, all questions are pointless wastes of time. We have a system, a system so perfect in its flawed-ness that we need never think individually again, only work like a blue-assed fly to maintain. Bollocks to the planet. When it fades, so will we, and nothing will be worried about again. Few worry now, at least few of those that matter anyways, and by the time a critical mass worries then it’ll be too late and we’ll all die. We are born to die anyway, so no worries there. Uh oh, thoughts leaning towards suicidal. Better stop. Never mind. Just forget all this, re-write your memory or something. All this will fade away anyway so it really doesn’t matter. Nothing does anymore. Remember to maintain the system! Adios, peace out.
I’m having trouble…remembering stuff. Memories. They keep fading, and then returning (never as sharp as the day they were formed, but that’s to be expected) and then fading as if they weren’t there in the first place. Bad memories always return more as feeling than as actual ‘mental-movies’ and I try to re-write them in a better light but this just screws up everything. And then there are the recurring questions…I would give away my ability to think as an individual without a second thought if it would stop these questions and let me do what needs to be done. To do my job and make money so I can buy a crummy home that does only what its supposed to and all the stuff needed to sustain my physical shell. I must be crazy, but then you have the whole ‘catch 22’ situation. Go figure. Go read the book. I don’t know. Maybe it’s the alcohol I keep drinking, or the questions posed by others getting stuck in my head like some stupid stuck record, or just the thoughts of others period. Some questions, no, all questions are pointless wastes of time. We have a system, a system so perfect in its flawed-ness that we need never think individually again, only work like a blue-assed fly to maintain. Bollocks to the planet. When it fades, so will we, and nothing will be worried about again. Few worry now, at least few of those that matter anyways, and by the time a critical mass worries then it’ll be too late and we’ll all die. We are born to die anyway, so no worries there. Uh oh, thoughts leaning towards suicidal. Better stop. Never mind. Just forget all this, re-write your memory or something. All this will fade away anyway so it really doesn’t matter. Nothing does anymore. Remember to maintain the system! Adios, peace out.
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