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Fiz
Joined: Nov 10, '09
Status: New User |
2009-11-10 20:05:11 |
| In my early years of elementary school, I think I was pretty much normal except I was extremely nerdy (learning binary, doing math a few years in advance, actually reading, etc.). In my second half of elementary school, I was still really nerdy, and I was pretty social at school. I was really talkative and my classmates often asked if I was trying to be annoying. I honestly didn't care about their opinion of me, it's just I thought that was really rude... and I also stopped wanting people to come over (my dad who was afraid I would become isolated tried to make me have at least one 'playdate' every two weeks) until by 6th grade I never met up with anyone outside of school, and 7th grade I didn't have any friends. But I never minded not having any friends until around last year (9th grade). I still don't care if my peers don't accept me, that's fine, but I want to connect to at least some people, but I just can't bring myself to really trust them, I do feel like I'm always being judged, and these relationships always seem to stay on a superficial level, because I think that's probably how the other person feels or maybe they don't actually want to be my friend and if they do they probably won't in one year or will change their mind really easily or they won't like me anymore if I show signs of stupidity (in the academic sense) or a million other things. I don't know if this counts as Avoidant Disorder? I mean I'm not really shy... I still talk to people, talk to people of both genders equally (I'm a girl), and I can be very talkative as I said before. | |
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Jeanine
Joined: Nov 2, '09
Status: New User |
2009-11-10 20:23:10 |
| Im also like that, thinking other ppl think bad things about me and judging me. Although im not stupid i can talk i dnt trust ppl enough to share feelings and sorrows and troubles.i then avoid talking or visiting them. Only if i believe that i can trust the person ill talk to him or her. Do yourself a favour get ppls numbers you like. After school ev1 splits up. At univers etc get their nr. That way theyl know you like them. I wish i did it. | |
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