Thread Topic: Please Help Me
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hopscotch
Joined: Sep 8, '09
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2009-09-08 19:59:22 |
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i am 16 and started cutting at the start of this year. i used to be strong- able to deal with everything- but my life is falling apart. im failing almost everything in school, my home life is s--- and my stepdad has massive mood swings all the time. my real dad is in jail for murder, he suffered severe depression (probly borderline) but i still love him. he helps me stay happy but i dont get to see him often. the stress of everything is just too much to bear. my close friends know that i cut and my really close friends know that i have suicidal thoughts a lot and i have attempted it. they worry about me a lot, but im always worried about them because they cut too. i recently got grounded for sneaking out to see my boyfriend, but i rely on him and my friends to keep me going. i only trust them. i hate home and my family. i dont feel safe at home. i am only close to dad and my Granny but she once ssaid that if i ever cut then she wouldnt be there for me, cuz its stupid. she has such strong veiws on everything and would never forgive me if i told her. i cut regularly. i cant help it. it just happens. its stress relief, among other reasons. i dont know what i should do. i know my cutting is a problem but i am in two minds about quitting. i want to but i dont want to. also i really want to help my friends stop but i have no idea what to do. i guess im being hypocritical but i dont care. i only care about thier safety. i cant keep on living at home either. i hate it and i dont feel safe.i dont trust anyone at home. i want to run away but im not sure. it would hurt mum too much. but i seriosly need to get away. im not going to survive being grounded. i took the test and here are my results, if anyone is interested... paranoid.. V. high schiziod.. mod. schizotypal.. V.high antisocial.. high borderline.. V.high histronic.. high Narcissistic.. high avoidant.. V.high dependant.. V.high obsessive compulsive.. high |
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Unanswered Thread: paranoid hypochondriac posted by cncathy 6 hours ago |
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fantasy
Joined: Jul 28, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-09-09 13:02:20 |
| I'm probably not the best person to go to advice for, because I'm pretty biased about cutting.. personally I think theres nothing wrong with it .. but I don't know.. let me come back to this, I don't know what to say :( but remember things can always get better | |
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Fatality
Joined: Jul 14, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-09-09 14:04:16 |
| Yeah a lot of us on here think cutting is fine, but like a lot of things thats opinion based. Are you able to call your boyfriend? It won't be the same as seeing him i know, but its something. I'm afraid i can't give much advice here, but i can try to help on the cutting aspect. Don't think of it as hypocritical. Being hypocritical is a bad thing usually, but you're being a good friend and looking out for them, thats admirable, NOT hypocritical, cause i know cutting is hard to stop, whether you want to stop or not. If you want to keep cutting i would suggest hiding it if you don't want your Gran to know, and if she'll react as you say she would, then i guess it would be best to not tell her. If you have suicidal thoughts see someone. You're probably thinking "i've heard all this before" and if i'm honest i thought that too but in the end it's worth it, i found the suicidal thoughts influenced everything else. I wish you the best :) | |
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hopscotch
Joined: Sep 8, '09
Status: New User |
2009-09-09 16:40:33 |
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no i cant call him :(. my parents took everything from me.. i have to sneak on to here even.. thanks for your help anyway. if you think of any more advice im glad to try anything. im not sure how to get help without letting my parents know though.. |
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fantasy
Joined: Jul 28, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-09-09 22:38:27 |
| Well it seems like you like your friends a lot. Even letting out your thoughts to someone can help. And I know this might sound lame too but try to understand your parents. Some parents are just ****ed up and dumb, I know that, but some aren't completely hopeless, they're still teachable. But only try talking to them if they're the teachable kind ... otherwise only you'll get hurt even more. and remember when you're 18 you're free as a bird :) well.. almost .. :( not really. But you'll be MORE free :D | |
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fantasy
Joined: Jul 28, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-09-09 22:41:01 |
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Oh and another thing ... do you have a source of money? money can do great things, like your own cellphone that you can text your bf with. this sounds a lil immature but that's what I did .. I bought a computer with my savings ... ._. |
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hopscotch
Joined: Sep 8, '09
Status: New User |
2009-09-09 22:42:29 |
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yer cant wait till then.. hey do you think i would be able to get into the police force? i wanna do that when im older but im not sure if they would let me.. im not sure what i would be able to do like.. i could join the army but.. yer i dunno |
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fantasy
Joined: Jul 28, '09
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2009-09-09 22:50:03 |
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Well personally I have no idea about how police force or army works but try looking it up! I'm pretty sure you can do it if you really want to.. like who can stop you? It's great that you have even a vague idea of what you want to do when you grow up :D I don't even have a vague idea. |
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hopscotch
Joined: Sep 8, '09
Status: New User |
2009-09-09 23:06:07 |
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hmm yer i know what you mean.. i only recently started wanting this, like start of this year. and i dont know what i would do if i failed at this. i would have nowhere to go from there |
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elisafauzana
Joined: Aug 27, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-09-10 00:16:00 |
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i agree with fantasy. money can do wonders.i truly understand how u feel, because i hated my home and ran away too. but at that time i was 20. i had job and money. if u r totally dependant on your parents, then probably it's just not yet time for u run away. r u still going to college ? if yes,just finish your college first. be glad that u can meet your friends there. that police or army force idea is good. be sure really go for it if u like it. u will get three in one thru it. one, a job u like, two, your money and three, freedom from your home. total independance. u'll be able to visit your father and stay with your granny. try talking about this to your granny. she might be able to help u. like i got mine that time. i wish u luck,hopscotch |
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hopscotch
Joined: Sep 8, '09
Status: New User |
2009-09-13 00:37:21 |
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thanks, but i dont know what granny would think. she hates the idea of police and army cuz she doesnt want me to get hurt. and if she ever found out that i cut she would probably not want me in her life. i have asked her before if i could live with her and she said no, cuz she wouldnt have enough time to look after me. i go to high school.. 1 more year left!! and i have a part time job. i wouldnt say im completely dependant on my parents but i guess they do alot... ok my mum does a lot, stepdad is too fat and lazy to do anything >:( if i run away i could like couch surf around my friends houses, and i think i would be able to look after myself when i need to. im sure i would be able to find somewhere to go each night. thanks for your help anyway elisafauzana :) |
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