i think i might have BPD

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truenight94
Joined: Sep 8, '09
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2009-09-08 21:40:42
I think I might have BPD but I don't know what to do about it. What should I do??
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   paranoid hypochondriac posted by cncathy 6 hours ago
elisafauzana
Joined: Aug 27, '09
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2009-09-08 21:59:28
maybe u cud start up telling us y u think u have bpd..
fantasy
Joined: Jul 28, '09
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2009-09-09 13:04:05
Yea, say what makes you think you have bpd and why it worries you, like what about it is problematic for you. :)
kez
Joined: Sep 9, '09
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2009-09-09 13:37:18
I thought I had it, until I did the test, and it said I was only moderately BPD with 7 other disorders standing out the same or more. I've also been diagnosed with OCD for 2 years now.
I'm looking forwards to thinking that people will like me in the future like they did when i was in my 20s, but don't mind being quite alone and 'just' a mother/gardener these days.
Does this sound familiar to anyone here?
fantasy
Joined: Jul 28, '09
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2009-09-09 22:42:34
kez: I don't understand .. people liked you then stopped liking you?
The latter part sounds familiar, not minding being alone. I wouldn't mind some alone time either, assuming my soul mate hope is dead..
elisafauzana
Joined: Aug 27, '09
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2009-09-10 00:41:50
i don't really understand to, kez. r u saying that u r a single mother? sory if i got it wrong
kez
Joined: Sep 9, '09
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2009-09-10 01:40:49
haha fantasy, i trust they continue to breathe?)
yeh that's how it honestly seemed to happen. i used to be kind of bulletproof in my mind, had a horror birthing exp and seemed to lose alot of confidence - thought it might be a kind of PTSS for a few years, but the old mates/pre birth mates i kept bumping into just kept dropping out of view and .... yeah. i still have good self esteem and dont get why i seem a bit untouchable, tho i did get pretty fat and understand some would assoc bad things with that. meh, i will keep on keeping on lol.
kez
Joined: Sep 9, '09
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2009-09-10 01:45:37
yes elis i am a single mother. ive had an on again off again partner for 5 years and we are in a highly cooled off period haha. but we are both too busy to put time into the relationship i think we haven't even bothered to talk about it/the break up/whether we are even allowed to date others this time lol. i dont at all mind being single short term.

anyone else want to share?) it's part of BPD to not have many successful close relationships, right.
elisafauzana
Joined: Aug 27, '09
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2009-09-10 13:26:36
i had a horror birthing experience too, kez. i got pregnant before getting married,and wanted to abort it. but my husband, then boyfriend asked me to keep the baby and marry him. when i married him, i left my family, becuse they dissaproved our marriage. so when i gave birth, it was just me and my husband. both inexperienced. so i didn't really had people to advise me or comfort me before, during and after giving birth. i was induced and that was even painful than a normal delivery. until now i am not ready to have my second child, my son is already six, going to be seven. he has been asking for a baby bro or sis for more than a year now. my husband has been asking too. but i am just not ready to go into another horrifying experience.
elisafauzana
Joined: Aug 27, '09
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2009-09-10 13:44:53
yes, kez, it is part of bpd for not having successful relationship. like myself, constantly tried to run away from my husband, tried to jeopardise our marriage, when i know how many good things my husband did for me, including accepting me and marrying me. but i will just feel insecure and empty all the time.i have hurt my husband many times. but he stays. but we r staying far away from each other now, as he has migrated and working in a diffrent country now for the past 3 n half years. so practically, i am a single mother too, though not theoritically. i took care of my son from the age of 3 till now, 6, going to be 7.i do everything for my son my own. send him to nursery, then go to work, take him back, cook for him, help him with his homeworks, plan for his weekends, etc.

well, it's not a must for us to get married or having a partner. sometimes being single make us feel stronger and independant. but we probably need the father of our child give a little support, like calling to say hi, or paying some visits, etc. does your child's father do that, kez? how old is your child now? anyone else assisting u in taking care of him?
fantasy
Joined: Jul 28, '09
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2009-09-10 17:49:20
Wow you guys are all moms.. I'm intimidated ._.
elisafauzana
Joined: Aug 27, '09
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2009-09-10 17:57:35
hey, fantasy..no offense. u r still young maa..
kez
Joined: Sep 9, '09
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2009-09-12 03:00:26
wow elisa, you guys have done really well also, im glad my own extended family wasn't quite that sucky and judgemental. i would have left yours also.

yeh my babies' fathers are awesome, i have 2, my kids are 9 years apart. i think i somehow chose really good fathery dads. so they see their kids 3 days a week/have them over night every week of they year, when you add up all the hols and everything.

the kids are doing quite well, of course i worry that my own isolation may interfere with their friendships, but how would you know lol. at least we have each other, and my social isolation maybe puts more time into my family.
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