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racyandy
Joined: Oct 23, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-04 08:24:16 |
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I'm Thinking: That my house is a madhouse in the mornings. I'm Feeling: That I will miss my friend whos been on my couch for a few months. My Actions: Getting my son to school on time. My Urges: To be the most confident and enthustic person I know. |
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Unanswered Thread: VRIELLIS PLEASE READ posted by Synapse 13 days ago |
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fantasy
Joined: Jul 28, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-04 09:10:38 |
| I don't know what I"m thinking lol, atm I just feel neutral. But that could change in three seconds to ecstasically hyper or depressed, so Idk | |
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Fatality
Joined: Jul 14, '09
Status: Senior User |
2009-11-04 09:12:49 |
| You had better not get all depressed on me :( | |
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stephie
Joined: Oct 15, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-04 12:27:37 |
| hey i was feeling ok. Just back froma night meeting with my parents bout BPD. It went ok but now i feel deflated. i guess. xx Fantasy i know where u coming from high to low.xx | |
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Delirius
Joined: Nov 3, '09
Status: New User |
2009-11-04 12:31:52 |
| I know what you guys mean, I hate the quick changes in my mood | |
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stephie
Joined: Oct 15, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-04 12:34:32 |
| yeah is crazy, feeling iritable right now. I can feel it coming on so distracting myself by listening to music and writing on here. xx | |
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fantasy
Joined: Jul 28, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-04 12:59:45 |
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Yeah I hate it when I get irritable, everything pisses me off like mad, so stressful. The sad hits are more common for me though. I've been wondering for a while, what are those two X's at the end? people say something and then add "xx" maybe I'm just a tard but hey, better to ask than pretend to know |
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stephie
Joined: Oct 15, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-04 13:02:11 |
| thats okay its like a kiss. i always do it lol! just habbit. yeah i am hit wth sadness like i just want to cry but i don't even know why lol! | |
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fantasy
Joined: Jul 28, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-04 13:05:23 |
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It is terrible when I'm sad, I cry for no reason or a really small reason that doesn't explain it. Like I don't know, random thoughts just make me so sad inside, like everything is dead or something I can't even explain it, cuz it's just a sad feeling, but sad doesn't seem enough to describe it. Like this trembling heavy feeling inside? xx! :D |
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stephie
Joined: Oct 15, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-04 13:08:04 |
| yeah so right. it's a feeling of emptiness and alienation. I wish i cud explain it but i guess its hard. I get random thoughts too. Like the past mu future etc... scary place sumtimes.x | |
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fantasy
Joined: Jul 28, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-04 13:18:16 |
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Yeah I'm not sure what it is, except I know how terrible it feels... I think things and I get "moved" by myself, it's kind of lame but that's what I do. Usually when I think of the future, I think how pointless it is and how nothing's ever going to change from the way things are now, and I'll just suffer every day like I do now except more beause I'll have to drag myself to work every day and I imagine myself huddled in some homeless shelter or some crappy apartment wanting to die, and some other times I just can't think of the future, I just don't know what to do and I'm scared because I haev no idea what's going to happen to me, I don't know, right now I don't think that, but when I'm depressed I do. Something like that... yeah and it's weird because I have two depressed moods, one's the actively depressed one when I feel the crying in my core and the pain and grief and loneliness, and the other's when I just feel bored and empty and not feeling ANYTHING, and I think about things that are supposed to make me feel good or bad, and I don't feel anything, I just don't care about what happens to me. Do you get this? x |
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stephie
Joined: Oct 15, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-04 13:27:11 |
| yeah i defently do. Please don't feel this way things will gt better i promise its taken me and is still taking me time to get better. Unfortunatly BPD is not curable just have to learn to cope with things differently, I know seems lame! Wish i had a magic wand. You seem like a great person. Try to take each day as it comes and nnot look too much into the future. It can be scary.I'm scared of being alone and ending up wanting to die. But things can only get better can't they. Its hard to change over night, week months years even but we can do it. promise. we'll stay positive as much as can together.xx | |
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racyandy
Joined: Oct 23, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-05 07:34:57 |
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Thinking: About all the things I would like to get done today. Being gratful for all the healthy people in my life who believe in me and want to help me in my recovery. Feeling: Irritable, my boyfriend always try to talk to me when I'm here, Sometimes I feel like he is a discourager, he doesn't mean to be but sometimes it sucks all the energy out of me. |
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racyandy
Joined: Oct 23, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-05 07:38:38 |
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Actions: Going job hunting today, with a former co-worker.( I was recently suspended from work and my co-worker resigned because she didn't want to get me in trouble, I was her boss. I was ultimatly fired. ) Urges: Nothing negitive. Try to be the most positive and enthustic person I know today! |
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shades of gray
Joined: Oct 23, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-05 08:00:01 |
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Feelings : unsure, kinda happy but scared it will change at anymonent I WANT TO CUT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH |
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Unanswered Thread: OCD Bracelet Fund Raiser posted by vbaz 34 days ago |
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