Thread Topic: HELP
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Owlie
Joined: Oct 6, '09
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2009-11-14 02:14:25 |
| I have been feeling like this for 3 years, it has got worse and i have tried to take my life 8 months ago, i was told though that i was attention seeking. everytime i ask someone for help, i get dismissed. i went to my GP 3 weeks ago, telling him that i think i have BPD. his reply was "so half the population have BPD what do u want me to do about it". i then got ery emotional and ran out of the surgery. He told my mum that he would refer me back to the psychatrist and i would have an appt within 10 days. this was 2 weeks ago and i have still heard nothing. i feel like noone cares, no one wants to help me. i have stopped looking at suicide as my only option and tried to get help, and i keep hitting brick walls. what can i do? i feel like i have to kill myself now, i cant bear this pain and torture i feel. i have huge anxiety and everytime i talk to someone i worry that i am going to say the wrong thing. i dont know what else to do. what do yu do when the people who are meant to help turn their backs on you? how am i meant to carry on? if i fail this suicide attempt then they are just going to laugh at me, but at the same time i dont want to lose my mum or boyfriend. what do i do? i am asking for help for the last time xx | |
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Unanswered Thread: Nuclear Apocalypse posted by Gumba Gumba 16 hours ago |
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stephie
Joined: Oct 15, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-14 02:55:35 |
| Don't give up owlie. You are going a long the right lines. Not everyone has BPD and what an awful thing for your Doc to say. BPD is a more intense emotion we feel than other people. Yeah sure everyone has a personality problem. But this is more serious and they shoukd take you seriously. Sometimes it takes a while to c a psychiatrist. It must be awful not knowing why you feel like this. and without help this will not get better not through your fault though. Please hang in there. What you are doing is not 4 attention but a cry for help can't they see this! makes me so mad the health care system. They are lettining u down and should be way more sensitive. Try and think of the positives in your life at the mo. and hopefully this will ease the pain a bit. Sorry i'm not much help. bless you. Hope it all turns out ok. xx | |
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Owlie
Joined: Oct 6, '09
Status: New User |
2009-11-14 03:07:40 |
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thank you. i keep trying to hang in there and fight, but every professional i have seen, dont seem to want to know. iv been fobbed off with antidepressants which arent helping, but i know if i come off them then they are going to say that im not trying to get better. i have been very negative in the past and focused on suicide for quite a while. but i have people in my life now who make me want to live, but the professionals seem to want to make life as difficult as possible for me. how do you cope with these intense feelings? i get scared and dont want to worry my boyfriend so i ran out of the house thurs night and spent the next 2 hours driving around, not knowing what to do, how to cope or where to turn to :( Thank you for taking the time to reply to me :) |
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Owlie
Joined: Oct 6, '09
Status: New User |
2009-11-14 03:12:06 |
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thank you. i keep trying to hang in there and fight, but every professional i have seen, dont seem to want to know. iv been fobbed off with antidepressants which arent helping, but i know if i come off them then they are going to say that im not trying to get better. i have been very negative in the past and focused on suicide for quite a while. but i have people in my life now who make me want to live, but the professionals seem to want to make life as difficult as possible for me. how do you cope with these intense feelings? i get scared and dont want to worry my boyfriend so i ran out of the house thurs night and spent the next 2 hours driving around, not knowing what to do, how to cope or where to turn to :( Thank you for taking the time to reply to me :) |
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K8bpd
Joined: Oct 25, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-14 05:34:29 |
| That doctor was an ass! It does sometimes take a while to get help. Just hold on to the people you love and you will find help from a professional soon and then really talk about your prob...he or she wont laugh at you and I'm sure the people you love wont laugh at you...take care,the feelings are really intense but you can fight them by doing things that you enjoy...and at least you didnt cut, you might have wasted some gas by driving around but you didnt harm yourself. Keep up the good work | |
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Owlie
Joined: Oct 6, '09
Status: New User |
2009-11-14 06:27:59 |
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all my doctors are like that. i spent 3 days in hospital after an od. i went to my gp 3 days later to get help and she said, "well, if you had a drug or alcohol problem then i could help u but coz ur jsut depressed i cant". The next one said that i was doing it to be cool and hang out with friends (firstly i dont have friends, and the friends i do, do not think its cool, neither do i. its a way of coping) so i thought 3rd time lucky, and that was the doc who said half the populaton have bpd, what do u want me to do about it (said in a v sarky way). So not great in the professional help. i do cut alot and tried that night, but i couldnt get the relief i normally do. tablets didnt work, i thought i was broke. even my coping statergies wouldnt work :( And now i went to sit downstairs with my dad this morning, coz you know sitting in bed all day doesnt help ect and he said hed rather watch tv then talk 2 me, so am back in my room. just told my mum and shes downstairs now confronting him, i can hear him denying everything. its all just getting too much, i dont know how to cope. hes making me feel like a liar, and i hate the fact i make them 2 argue. what can i do?? :( |
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K8bpd
Joined: Oct 25, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-14 12:23:45 |
| Oh ok well then...my dad is the same way and my parents fight all the time over s--- like that...it is aweful and it seems like parents dont see the soul inside of you hurting so badly...and you are obviosly not doing it(the cutting) to be cool...ITS NOT COOL! ugh your doctors are insane. | |
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