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disorderguy
Joined: May 5, '09
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2009-05-22 07:25:39 |
| It's normal to feel down after a relationship ends, but with dependent personality disorder a break-up is a crushing blow to one's psyche. I wonder if anyone here wants to share their experience dealing with deep depression and possible suicidal thoughts/actions following a break-up. Your stories will help others know that they aren't alone. | |
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Unanswered Thread: VRIELLIS PLEASE READ posted by Synapse 13 days ago |
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aamna
Joined: May 27, '09
Status: New User |
2009-05-27 01:22:58 |
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aamna
Joined: May 27, '09
Status: New User |
2009-05-27 01:26:57 |
| it is natural as you said but it is difficult to coop up with it.time is the best medicine.you should not forget your previous expriance.world is a hugh place and god is always kind on us.be happy and dont hate yourself,you r blesssed with other thing in life. | |
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jenks
Joined: Jun 6, '09
Status: New User |
2009-06-06 22:08:44 |
| During my last break up (over a year ago) I took the worst down turn in my life. I had actually broken up with my boyfriend, and in turn to hurt me he hooked up with my close friend, (who also seems to need someone more so than i think i do) so I took this very hard, I think because I realized he wasn't there for me anymore, so I tried to kill myself one night while they were moving out. they had no Idea but I was drinking and slowly swallowing 2 bottles of sleeping pills. long story short I spent quite some time in the hospital. now i look back on the vague memories I have of that night and wonder if Im heading right back to the same place with my current boyfriend that I met a mere month after these events. I just remember feeling like a whole different person. I don't feel like it was me who did these things and i wonder if something were to happen again, would I remember that it can get better? | |
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sophie
Joined: Jun 8, '09
Status: New User |
2009-06-08 05:19:04 |
| At the end of last year my boyfriend ended our relationship. I was nearly 16 at the time. I've never had much self esteem but what I did have virtually went. I kept clinging on to what we had. He gave me false hope saying things might be different in the future and rarely spoke to me again. I kept asking myself what was wrong with me and why he didn't want me anymore. I felt so inadequate and alone. I guess I didn't feel like I deserved to have friends around me because I didn't feel like I was good enough. I shut everyone out and cut people out of my life including my best friend who'd I'd known for ten years. I stopped going out and stayed in my room in my spare time. I began to have suicidal thoughts and imagined the ways I could kill myself and convinced myself that people wouldn't miss me if I was gone. Luckily something kept me holding on and in the end I never took action. Things are a lot better now I still feel isolated but I'm making more of an effort to socialise with people. I've recently met an amazing guy and I can only hope that things will be better this time. | |
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randompte
Joined: Jun 10, '09
Status: New User |
2009-06-10 21:06:28 |
| when i broke up with my previous gf i basically lost all track of where i was headed and everything like that i tried to commit suicide and was actually on this high bridge about to jump when i was grabbed off it and pulled away from the edge i thank whoever it was that did that but my life will still never be the same | |
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melmel362
Joined: Jun 13, '09
Status: New User |
2009-06-13 08:58:05 |
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Me and my last boyfriend, nick, were together for eight months. We were always really happy around each other, and he was the only person who really seemed to understand me. He was the first person i ever fell in love with. We were only fifteen (and still are) but i know we were in love. He told me we would marry each other. I didn't believe it, and i knew i shouldn't, but i wanted it to be true. But the whole time i was with him, i didn't trust him. I was too scared to trust him, because i didn't want to get hurt. And he knew i didn't trust him. It crushed him. And in the last month of the relationship we got in fights every single day. But i didn't even notice how bad it was getting, because i loved him, and all i focused on was the good. Then one morning we were talking about it on the phone. And he said he couldn't take the arguing anymore. And that it made him feel like crap that he did all he could possibly do to help me trust him, but i still couldn't. So he broke up with me. I couldn't believe that it was really happening.. I started crying, and then screaming, and then throwing stuff, and then punching myself in the legs until i couldn't feel them anymore. I limped into the living room and logged onto the computer. I got online and went to Google and searched 'quickest way to kill yourself'. I decided to drink clorox. Its one of the most painful ways to die, but i convinced myself that i deserved to go through all the pain, because it was my fault he dumped me. But before i did anything, i had to talk to nick. I wanted his voice to be the last think i heard. So i called him and during the call he texted my mom. My mom called and said she was on her way home. Her voice was quivering when she spoke. And then i thought about all the people that love me that i would be leaving behind if i did this. My parents, my grandparents, my five siblings that love me, four of which are younger. And my best friends. So i walked up to my neighbors house which was where two of my best friends, mccaela and caleb, were at the time. I stayed with them and they helped me through that day. Its only been a little over a month since that day. A few weeks ago nick told me he didn't love me anymore. Which broke my heart again. And thats when i stopped talking to him. And after thinking about it, i realized, this whole thing wasn't my fault. He always took his anger out on me, yelling at me all the time, but being nice to everyone else. And would get mad at me if i didn't do something right. He started almost all of the arguments! And i decided after thinking, that i need someone that will love me UNCONDITIONALLY, which he didn't. Because i didn't trust him, he dumped me. I need someone that will keep me no matter what. Someone that would never give up on me. And he did. Now I'm dating a guy named Zach. Who by the way, was one of Nick's friends. Haha. I'm still not completely over Nick, and might not ever be. Zach understands that. He will tell you that me and Nick were completely in love. He used to talk to Nick about it all the time. And he's told me, Nick was in love with me. But stuff happens, thats life. You just have to learn to not think about it, and move on. And i know you've heard this a million times, but everything will be okay. I didn't believe it at the time, but its true. Take me for and example. After crying everyday straight for over three weeks, i haven't cried in two weeks now. If something like this happens to you. Just know that it was not all your fault, there are people that still love you, there is someone thats better for you out there, and everything will be okay. It will take time, but everything will be okay. I promise. if you would like to talk to me about something like this that's happened to you, search for me on myspace.com my email is: [no emails] I'm online pretty much everyday. But tell me in the little message box what you're adding me for. Because i don't normally add people i don't know, but I'll add you if you tell me it's because of this site. |
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melmel362
Joined: Jun 13, '09
Status: New User |
2009-06-13 09:02:15 |
| well it wouldn't let me show my email so my url is: myspace.com/sugarlips362 | |
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disorderguy
Joined: May 5, '09
Status: Admin |
2009-06-13 11:27:10 |
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melmel, as they say, those who you love the most are those who can hurt you the most. And isn't it strange how once two people "in love" get comfortable enough with each other they begin to feel okay with dropping the niceties and acting mean toward each other, even as they continue to be pleasant toward everyone else? Good to see you've gotten through a rough time. |
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ash
Joined: Jun 15, '09
Status: New User |
2009-06-15 06:20:20 |
| i think being in a relationship is bery tough sometimes u start to feel they dnt l;ove u anymre n den u feel they cannot be trusted especially if u did not know them much b4 u went out wiv them. being in a breakup can be extremely hard but evrything happens for the best and at that time u might think he was the best guy ever or the best guy ull ever have but trust me there are more men out there. remember the good times not the bad and just think about it as sharing your love with som eone else you had fun while it lasted so what if u dnt get it agen atleast u still hav the good memories and they will last forever. | |
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NoOneImportant
Joined: Jun 16, '09
Status: New User |
2009-06-16 17:52:50 |
| Me and my boyfriend just split up today. We've been on and off for a year and a half already, and today I had just had enough. He's cheated on me four times, tried to twice more, we've tried making a go of things, but I can't seem to forget what he's done, and today I passed my limit when I found out he'd spent Valentines Day with another girl, while be practically ignored me that day. I feel suicidal and as though life isn't worth it. I have Avoidant Personality Disorder so it's not like finding a new guy is going to be easy, so who knows. I might not even be here tomorrow. | |
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ladywinter
Joined: Jun 17, '09
Status: New User |
2009-06-17 08:25:33 |
| My bf broke up with me on 27th May, we've been together for 8 years. Out of sudden he told me he is not happy with his current life now. He feels that the life he having now is "have to" and not he wanted to. This is like the worst thing that happened to me in my whole life, I can't really accept the truth even until today, but I know this thing already happened and no matter how, I also can't go back to the day before we break up. He keeps advise me to let go now, maybe in future he still in love with me then we will back together. All this while, I'm facing emotional changing rapidly, one second I feel relief but then another second I feel depress again. I keep surfing on this emotional imbalance topic, hope can help me to overcome this the soonest. Any advice is highly appreciated. | |
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ROSALEEN
Joined: Jun 22, '09
Status: New User |
2009-06-22 03:45:23 |
| I feel very suicidal when my partner and I have a row and he tells me he is leaving.I am so full of anger that he is abondoning me and all I want to do is to end my life asap to stop the pain.I feel so worthless and empty and unable to pull myself out of the black hole that i feel i am in right now.My partner tells me he doesn't understand how DEPRESSION makes me feel although we have been together 5 and a half years.I have told him it's like cancer of the mind as its the only way i can describe it. Rosaleen | |
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ROSALEEN
Joined: Jun 22, '09
Status: New User |
2009-06-22 03:53:44 |
| I feel very suicidal when my partner and I have a row and he tells me he is leaving.I am so full of anger that he is abondoning me and all I want to do is to end my life asap to stop the pain.I feel so worthless and empty and unable to pull myself out of the black hole that i feel i am in right now.My partner tells me he doesn't understand how DEPRESSION makes me feel although we have been together 5 and a half years.I have told him it's like cancer of the mind as its the only way i can describe it. Rosaleen | |
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whyme
Joined: Jul 11, '09
Status: New User |
2009-07-11 19:44:52 |
| I recently found out that my fiance was living a double life. He told me that he and his ex-gilfriend were going their seperate ways and because he was in probation for some trouble he had gotten into that he would be going into some type of halfway house and even had a curfew. Well, the past year and a half have been a lie. He was still living with her and had also proposed to her. I cant explain the pain I am in. My heart is literally breaking. I am so depressed and i feel like no one understands what this man has done to me. I trusted him and it just hurts. | |
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Unanswered Thread: OCD Bracelet Fund Raiser posted by vbaz 34 days ago |
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