Thread Topic: I think i may be Schizotypal / Avoidant
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Vertigo
Joined: Oct 3, '09
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2009-10-03 15:22:55 |
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Hi First off i should mention that this is incredibly hard for me to do this, as i'm not very good at sharing my thoughts or opinions - mostly cause i'm not used to human company or socialising i think - but for a long time now i really havn't been able to empathize with anyone. By this i mean that even in cases of people telling me their friends / family dying, it doesn't phase me at all. I sometimes feel that if anyone close to me dies, chances are i wouldn't care. Now i know this isn't exactly good behaviour...but i honestly don't feel anything from this. No happiness. No guilt. No sadness, no nothing. I feel very empty, and constantly feel people think of me as evil cause of my inabilty to feel. I always felt this was brought on cause i'm a big time loner - as i spend all my time by myself, and that regardless of what i did people always seemed to hate me. But despite this lack of empathy i don't hurt people. I also have no interest in females - as i'm male - but at the same time i get depressed cause i'm alone - and have been all my life - and have times when i feel very lonely, misunderstood, etc. Which brings me to another point. Not only do i feel i have Schizotypal, but i was high and very high in other disorders too. But i only feel i have this one, and Avoidant / Social Phobia as doing simple things like even using the phone are hard for me, i have a hard time taking to people, and often nearly feel like having an anxiety attack when with loads of people. Also doing new things for me is vey hard, and i often back out of doing them cause of anxiety. This was the result i got for this test (Also note that this isn't the only test i've done.I've done hundreds of 'em and all got the same results, which is why i have to confirm this). Disorder Rating Information Paranoid: Very High more info | forum Schizoid: High more info | forum Schizotypal: Very High more info | forum Antisocial: High more info | forum Borderline: Very High more info | forum Histrionic: Very High more info | forum Narcissistic: Very High more info | forum Avoidant: Very High more info | forum Dependent: High more info | forum Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate more info | forum My hobbies consist of my computer, anime and manga (of which i'm completly addicted and read / watch way more than a lot of people)listening to music, drawing, reading, games, etc. I have friends but only very very few - like 3 max. And they are pretty much like me, which is why i feel i can confide in only them. But then as this started to annoy me for a long time i finally cracked and now i pretty much want to test whether others are like me. See if others feel i have this disorder.And can accept me, even if i'm like this. |
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Unanswered Thread: Cyclothymia posted by Darkman33 9 minutes ago |
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wowu
Joined: Sep 30, '09
Status: New User |
2009-10-04 14:10:22 |
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hey, I am not much of a specialist but I may suggest you my thoughts that: - as far as I know - and you know too, BPD is connected with feeling empty - social anxiety and anxiety disorders are a general problem for more mental issues than personality disorders - it is good to have a few good friends. I do not think that you can have much more though. If you got lots of friends you have none friends. - well, if someone would tell me that his parent died I would be rather embarrassed what should I say or do (so a little scared about situation what doesn't mean I lack of empathy). And if you don't feel well in social situations your bad emotions can overwhelm you - but it doesn't mean you can't be empathic I think I may have 'Avoidant PD' (who did you think you will find here :) ) and I can relate to SA or feeling inadequate in social situations. I guess you got a big trouble but if you would overcome the anxiety you would be much nicer person. I wrote nicer because I am a loner too and I know that people can dislike you because they may think you avoid them because you don't like them or you got so big 'ego'. Just mind that these are my loosen thoughts so don't treat it too seriously. take care |
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Perez
Joined: Oct 10, '09
Status: New User |
2009-10-10 04:03:30 |
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Just to begin with, no offense i just need to make some things clear: Im sorry my fellow but im not buying, i dont think there's a way to get those results on the test, all of the tests come up with some this and some that, what i am trying to say is that some of the disorders collide with the others, for example, a total narcissistic would NEVER and i mean and repeat NEVER express him/herself the way you did, because they think extremely high of themselves, they would never let others see them as such pathetic beings and Theres ABSOLUTELY no possible way that very highly avoidant person would be a highly dependent one, that would be weird. And acording to your self description you cant possibly believe you can make us think you are an histrionic, can you? But oh well there are two simple explanations: Paranoid and Borderline, im not going to go deeper in those two, ill leave that to you if you want. Now to the main subject of this thread: I think you are schizotypal and avoidant, with some schizoid and paranoid, IF the whole text is true of course, anyway, i dont know you but i know this. Loneliness is not the end of the world or a bad version of it, i've been left alone since i can remember and never really had a problem with it because i realized that loneliness will only affect you if you care too much about it or if you dont mind being lonely at all. We are nothing until we are something with the world, other people may be good, bad or any other adjective in the vocabulary but the point is that we need them to shape ourselves, if you dont interact with people in some way youll never know who you really are, be it good or evil thats up to you to find out, but youll never make it on your own. The test is not actually veeery reliable, it is merely a pointer to what direction you are going, and judging by your hobbies im guessing you are kinda young so if you dont like it just change the direction, there's still plenty of time, you can do anything your mind can think of, after all, you are a human... Right? take care pal |
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whoknows
Joined: Oct 15, '09
Status: New User |
2009-10-15 19:36:26 |
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i don't know if this is an appropriate thing to do or not, but: [no urls] it's an unofficial quiz for Asperger's traits, but it's got a fairly good reputation from what i understand. apparently ASA approved psychologists (an advocacy org. for autistics) will treat you for AS-related issues if this quiz places you in the "likely AS" range. just a hunch. so much of what you're experiencing is eerily familiar to me. (it took me years and years to grieve for my mother's death, btw. i feel sad that she suffered, but the thing is: i rarely miss people when they leave.) (i score high on the AS test.) i score very high on the avoidant/schizotypal scale, moderate on schizoid and narcissistic tendencies, very high on borderline traits (although i'm having a hard time relating to the borderline forum. no judgement. but i experience the forum as very intense, and mostly my emotions seem pretty muted.) all of these are very common misdiagnoses for AS adults, as are the ones you scored high on. i don't want to overly question the psych test. but i don't think it takes the possibility of AS into account. again: your symptoms are just so familiar to me, and the combination of them is so familiar. just a hunch. but i hope you take the AS quiz. |
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whoknows
Joined: Oct 15, '09
Status: New User |
2009-10-16 12:05:00 |
| i'm sorry. i guess i can't put urls in this forum. one way to get to the quiz is to do a google search on "aspie-quiz." the first and second results of the search will take you to it. again--what you're going through just sounds so familiar to me. i wish you well. :) | |
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Shapes
Joined: Jan 10, '10
Status: New User |
2010-01-10 04:23:08 |
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Yeah, it is impossible for you to obtain those scores. Unless you retook the test multiple times and got different answers. Then, you wouldn't have included the "more info | forum" part. You are lying, but why you would lie is beyond me. Seeing as how you would make it so obvious that you are lying you must have some higher intention. A 'troll' like state. Anyways... If by some crazy way you are indeed telling the truth, I find this very relateable, but it can be interpreted by a vast majority of people here as relateable. Seeing how you wrote it that is. |
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fataldeath21
Joined: Jan 20, '10
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2010-01-20 14:52:19 |
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hi i'm newly figuring out that i may have schizotypal/bipolar 2. this stuff is a little scary. i'm not sure i really wanted to know these things, but it's too late now. i have always felt like a loner and didn't belong. now i might have the answers i've been looking for. i sometimes feel as if i'm going crazy. i guess this is normal. idk if it is normal. i've been thibnking bout suicide a lot lately. i've even gone as far as writing a letter. but i'm not strong enough to do it that makes me feel weak. i feel like i'm all alone and very hopless. |
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erinro
Joined: Nov 13, '09
Status: Senior User |
2010-01-20 15:40:38 |
| fataldeath21: i have also felt like i was going crazy, many times, and i didn't. you probably aren't. don't freak yourself out.. | |
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haart
Joined: Oct 17, '09
Status: Senior User |
2010-01-20 17:01:49 |
| Vertigo, you sound similar to me. I'm schizoid and antisocial, and I have virtually no empathy for anyone. I enjoy watching people suffer and grieve, I feel no guilt and I see them as weak. But I don't experience any anxiety when it comes to social situations. I'm doing CBT at the moment, it could work for you. | |
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Vek 17
Joined: Jan 26, '10
Status: New User |
2010-01-26 20:41:30 |
| I haven't ever been officially diagnosed, but I'm fairly certain that I'm schizotypical, and Schizoid. @I know where you're coming from with the whole thinking yoursef crazy (Though amitably I have spent the last 6 months convincing myself that people can't hear my thoughts). | |
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