Thread Topic: Do you find it hard?
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Beka
Joined: Nov 9, '09
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2009-11-17 12:22:17 |
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do you find that you think your friends are talking bout you behind your back? and that in relationships you feel you cant trust them? and with family you feel they wont understand? that they will think your crazy or kidding on? if so please reply and talk bout it, thanks xx |
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Unanswered Thread: Nuclear Apocalypse posted by Gumba Gumba 7 hours ago |
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Delirius
Joined: Nov 3, '09
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2009-11-17 12:37:58 |
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Yes i find all of that hard. And i doesnt help that ive found out people DO talk behind my back, especially my parents. I have a really hard time trusting people in relationships, thats why i havent had many. My family doesnt understand, ive tried to talk to them about it. And it's not that they think I'm crazy or kidding they just don't care. |
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Beka
Joined: Nov 9, '09
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2009-11-17 12:41:50 |
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see ive been paranoid bout everything my whole life. and last year i found out one of my ment to be best friends was talking bout me saying bad things to all my other friends but she was talking to each of us bout another and since then ive became worse. i often think that due to that and my mood swings are why guys dont tend to like me as more than the friend. my family would just think im being stupid and to be honest i dont really want to talk to them about it cos i know none of them would understand it. |
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Delirius
Joined: Nov 3, '09
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2009-11-17 12:45:16 |
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Well your not around people who have mood swings a lot then. I have mood swings and I'm a guy so i tend to hang out around people(mainly girls) who have them.(I'm not gay though, thought i should clarify) Most people don't understand extreme paranoia, i don't understand why I'm afraid all of the time but i am. I have this delusion that where ever i go some i waiting for the right time to stab me. |
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Beka
Joined: Nov 9, '09
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2009-11-17 12:56:41 |
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i used to have really bad mood swings and i almost lost somefriends cos of it, but once i told them why they understood but that was before the paranoia became really bad. yeah girls tend to have them a lot. my friends are pretty stable so my two closest friends help me. i've managed to get my mood swings under control now...mainly and a guy i like is starting to talk to me and stuff so im getting better in that sense. i dont understand why im afraid of "people" in the dark waiting to get me and hurt me. when you think about it, it doesnt make sense after but when its happening you think omg this is actually going to happen to me. my worst fear if gonna come true and its scary at the time. |
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Delirius
Joined: Nov 3, '09
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2009-11-17 13:00:01 |
| Yea same here, and even when im in the moment i know no one is there but the feeling that someone is there overwhelms me and i get really scared. | |
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Beka
Joined: Nov 9, '09
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2009-11-17 13:08:14 |
| yeah same and you dont want to say anything in case they think your stupid | |
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Delirius
Joined: Nov 3, '09
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2009-11-17 13:16:30 |
| Yea | |
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Beka
Joined: Nov 9, '09
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2009-11-17 14:00:14 |
| its so good to find someone who feels the same i was starting to feel so alone. | |
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Delirius
Joined: Nov 3, '09
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2009-11-17 15:13:33 |
| Ha no way, there are people that are really paranoid but just not many. | |
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Beka
Joined: Nov 9, '09
Status: New User |
2009-11-18 08:11:04 |
| yeah i noticed :/ | |
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AngstyKitsune
Joined: Nov 19, '09
Status: New User |
2009-11-19 09:23:30 |
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For me it's not as bad with the people I know, though the wrong joke can set me off badly (I tend to assume that no one, even those I'm closest to, is kidding about harming me). It doesn't help that I've had real betrayals in my life either. My wife, who I love, has cheated on me multiple times, and I've had people pretend to understand me and go along with what I'm saying just to make fun of it behind my back...or even later on to my face. For me, though, the worst is the people I don't know...or more specifically, the ones I only think are there. I can't count how many times I've run out of hot water because I was taking a shower and suddenly felt sure there was someone on the other side of the curtain. I've suffered nights where I couldn't move around the house at night for fear of things in the shadows. Worst of all, and most embarrassing...I made my wife give me a child-size doll, so I could perform an exorcism and destroy it/throw it away. Of course, it didn't help that my wife found it funny at the time to make it look like it was alive by putting it in doorways or moving it closer to me when I wasn't looking. I eventually forgave her for that...but I think it was that doll that made me realize I can be too afraid sometimes. |
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Beka
Joined: Nov 9, '09
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2009-11-19 11:06:38 |
| Thanks for the reply and i really do understand. im still in school so my bertayals arent as big as yours but i once had a few friends-who i once trusted with my life-talk about me and saying mean and hurtful things about me to each other and sharing my secrets and laughing bout them. and because of that its made me worse. | |
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AngstyKitsune
Joined: Nov 19, '09
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2009-11-19 14:23:39 |
| You're welcome. I've gotten to where I can accept gossip and the like over time, but I won't say that it was without a price. I tried to think of a way to describe that price, but in a way, I think it's just too personal to explain, but when I think about it....Sometimes I wonder if the person I used to be would like the one I am now. Usually I think he wouldn't. Maybe that's why I don't want to change any more? | |
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Beka
Joined: Nov 9, '09
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2009-11-19 14:59:21 |
| i often feel that way too. like the past year i've changed so much and when i look at old pictures i wonder if that me would understand this me or reject this me. its strange though... | |
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